ode to a sorry self

[credit: toothpastefordinner.com]

dear friend

rejection arrives
again, fresh
each time
the cut never old
familiar
the letter form/from
[prestigious retreat] came
today, sucks to be
me

you?

Comments

  1. beedieDecember 13, 2010 at 1:59 PM

    If you know me, you should be able to detect at least a little humor here, I hope.

    ReplyDelete
  2. pengoDecember 13, 2010 at 2:00 PM

    I love you.

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